Spinning & Zumba

While perusing Groupon & Living social I came across 2 great deals for Zumba & Spinning classes. I'm sure I can survive Spinning. It's low impact and I think it's a good cardio boost i can use now.   I've had second thoughts about Zumba after I bought it. All that jumping around may not be good for my arches, ankles & knees. If there's a fair amount of time between now and expiration date I may be ok with some conditioning.

I started walking again (YAY), my treadmill was out of commission (yea the brand new one). After a service call all is well.  It took a such long time for the tech to come. They thought it was the incline motor, they sent the part. When it finally came the tech came out and said it's the console! After doing a looong software update, it seemed to be responding better. It's usable now.  Before it would incline when it wanted to, the display would read 0 so I couldn't make it go down with out turning it off/on.

I did a great walk on Saturday. Now that I can log into IFit the calories burned count is correct!

My pace wasn't stellar. I couldn't wait for it to be over even with all the distractions of the street views of Niagra Falls. My time will improve, walking will get easier the more often I do it. At this new all time high weight I really can only ask my body to do what it can at this point.

I still haven't combated the sugar problem. Everyday I need to have some form of chocolate a few times a day. If I don't, I can't stop thinking about it. At times I can't do anything else until I had some. If I don't I'll eat everything else to avoid eating it and over eat anyway.

I'm still reading Fat Chance by Robert Lustig. I listen to a few podcast on LCHF living but I can't seem to get my head wrapped around a meal plan...

I wish there were sugar detox centers like there are rehabs for drug addicts. Go there, check in, and ride out the sugar induced mania. Get your blood sugar levels in check and the whole time learn to make meal plans that are low carb high fat.

If this does exist let me know, if it doesn't and I can actually do this myself and lose the weight and become healthy, I may be sitting on a gold mine!

Catch Up Post

Well, I've been plodding along for the past few weeks doing nothing to encourage weight loss or living a healthier lifestyle. In fact, I have eaten Reese's & Cadbury Mini Eggs like they were tranquilizers! I don't know what's gotten into me. It seems like when I set goals for myself the complete opposite happens. I think maybe I should start telling myself I'd like to gain some weight because when I say I want to lose weight all I do is GAIN!

source

I've hit another all time high on the scale. My body is beginning to feel & look like a Shar Pei puppy just not as cute. There's nothing cute about what I've allowed to happen to me. I'm now faced with warmer weather and the thought of pulling out my spring/summer clothes is nerve shattering. I'm really not sure if ANY of them are gonna fit. Tank tops? forget it, I'm looking at my second summer in t-shirts because I'm so embarrassed of my entire upper body. I really don't want to buy new clothes in a size I never wanted to see in my life! Just thinking about it makes me furious. I've become so uncomfortable in my own skin, at times I don't even recognize myself. I've become miserable, angry and antisocial. I really don't even want to leave the house. I push myself daily and make it to work, gotta pay the bills... But I don't enjoy anything about my day.

In other news, I'm reading Fat Chance by Dr. Lustig now. I just started this weekend so I don't have much to comment on, maybe I'll do a review about it when I'm done. I am going to try to eat more low carb and kick the sugar completely. I need to stop eating candy, it makes me hate food. It makes me hate everything! Eating candy is just so much easier than preparing meals. A handful of candy here and there gets me through the day with out any dishes! Can you say sugar addict?

I did take a 25 minute walk today at lunchtime. It was nice to be out in the fresh air, it's a beautiful day today. I tried to enjoy my time outside but as I walked all I could think about was how far out of shape I have let myself get.

Sorry for the doom & gloom.